Over thinker??

Apart from the morning thoughts, I am having morning self urges now hehe..

I once read a book about why women overthink.. I guess it doesn't happen to women only hehe.. sometimes I have this morning urges to think and think and think of everything in my life.. making conclusions, new ambitions (was thinking of writing a book about "being contempt"), self motivating.. trying to be positive..

sometimes i wish my brain would just stop all those unwanted thoughts and concentrate on the more important onces.

Funny that when it comes to writing it out here... my brain stops working hehehe... i wonder how those people can write and write, idea flowing likw the water from mountains.

by the way, is there any linkage for what the title says to what I am writing now? I am confius my self... arhhgggghhhhh.....

For that... lets stop here and read other poeple's blog,, seems more interesting..

Morning "bright" thoughts

When you wake up every morning, and your brain starts working, have you ever had that urge to wonder about life and make some sort of conclusion about life?

I've been doing that lately. I tend to just lay down thinking endlessly about everything and then make some sort of conclusions of my earlier thoughts.

yesterday was ;
"you can only try to make someone heart accept you, but you don't have the power to guarantee that. At the and, its always up to god say" .. being philosophical...

This morning was ;
"The only person that can make you happy is you"

then it follows by few more like "be what you suppose to be" if you are working - be a worker, if u are a husband - be a husband... and many more.. Seems like I was trying to motivate myself. Positively or negatively.. I donno...

I guess that was the reason.. self motivation.. that was what i was trying to do...

For that matter...it works up to 11 a.m. today, hehehe

Who to be blame...

You know those sections in the paper that people write in to tell stories about their sad unwanted life or problems to get advice from some dude (supposed to be da-pro) they don't even know. Anyway, I read one gd story.

Its about this lady who has married to a guy for 27 (yes twenty seven)years whom she called "Evil and Stingy". The guy never contribute into the family, even spending the family's money. He promised so much but never kept it. And a lot more bad things I can't really remember. I mean in "normal" relationship, she'll probably left the guy years ago. But why she stays? Is it because of the children? family pressures? Not wanting to let go? Love? Why can't she say something. Has she done everything possible to change him?

Whose fault is it? Taking it simple we'll probably would say that it is the guy that should be blamed. But is it the whole truth? In relationship is it always 1 person fault?

Thousands questions can be made, and thousands answers can be told. You'll get so confius even the logic seems to be in-logical. So... What is it? Can we simplified this (I read somewhere that human brain are made to simplified stuff).

The answer probably no. There's no way we can truly understand and comprehen wat exactly happen and who is to be blame. Only god knows.

I have my relationship problems. Been there, done that, felt those,.. Happy, on the cloud nine, dreamland, sad, anger, confius, betrayed and lots more. At the end I said, for whatever it is, after all those effort in keeping the relationship, making it happen (and if it works be happy man), accept your fate. Thats all, accept it. As if it was that easy....

continue....

Ok let us continue with the topic.

The thing is, I sometimes wonder and confuse of what really we are our dilemma. Why do we associate our self with those traits and are we really that bad?

If I ask you… are you proud to be Malay? What are the good things about us?
I am sure that many of us will be able to list down hundreds of our good traits without many problems.

Subsidy…
A magic word that all of us Malay knows. The fishermen, the farmers, the businessmen, the school, the students, the parents and many more asked for it. Its like we can’t live without it. Or can we?

This morning some people were complaining about increase of school charges as government are not subsidizing any more (at least not as much as they were). They used to pay just about $15 for books. Now they have to pay more than $100 for each of their children for school charges. I can understand. With the price increase of everything now, you can’t expect to chuck in more money for your children.

The thing is… are we the only one suffering? The price increase effect is across the board. Its call inflation (by the way you can’t get 0% inflation – economically doesn’t make sense). All of us are effected. The Chinese, the Indians, the “orang asli”, the Singh’s, the mix… everybody. Never heard that the Chinese complaint about not getting subsidies. Cos they never got it… of course they complaint about the high cost of living. Who doesn’t? Maybe they don’t even realized that subsidies actually exist.. I’m not sure myself.

Enuf on that one..

And many more should I have the time to write about it…

But for all of it… I am one proud “MALAY”. Will always be a Malay.. “belacan” is a food. I guess the “positive” changes has to start somewhere and many more out there already started it. SO if you are a Malay… be one, be a damm good one.. as it is us who can make the change, not others.

“Tak kan Melayu hilang di-dunia” …Laksamana Hang Tuah..

The Malay Dilemma... is it??

Were taking to people bout "The Malay Dilemma" for past few days. Think of writing something bout it..

Firstly, what do you define by the "Malay" race in this context? Is it Malay in Malaysia only? How bout Javanees in Indonesia? Moros in Philiphines? The Sri lankan Malay? Cape towners?

Do all of us have the same traits? same thinking? same attitudes? Can Tun Mahathir's dilemma be subjected to all of us Malays? or the Malaysian "Malays" only. And is there anything to relate us the Malaysian "Malays" to the other "Malays"?

Got to go for lunch... to be continued...

My favourite fruit

Was surfing people's pics in Flickr...
Found a pic of my fovourite fruit.. coool



Jambu air... emmmmm... cicah with kecap sambal... fuh!!!

Lets check out!!

Learned a new trick today... how to link a word here to a website..
So my friend's blog is tha victim heheh... check out khalil's blog page..

it ain't that cool hehehe....

Famous.... is that what we want?

Hey!!! I've got people reading my blog..
Some of you might say " what?? I have hundreds visiting my blog everyday man.."
But for me this is something new..

Then more come and read. More and more and more... until maybe one day I'll be world famous hehe.

The question is... is that what we want?

Being famous (or in-famous for some people) is a thing that most of us would say yes. Being treated like a star, driven in a stylo 100 ft limo, flashes pops whenever you get out of the car, young fans shouting and crying (and fainting) when you waved. Being guarded like a VVVVIP, driven in a nuclear bomb proof BMWs, FBI guns pops when a 10 yr old kid's balloon pop!, young greenpeace activist shouting (and throwing shit) when you open your mouth.

But some of us would prefer a more quite life. Away from those flashes and gossips in the tabloids. Waking up in the morning, breathing the cool breeze of "kampung" air, feeding your chickens, freeing your birds, chasing your cat (for stealing that fish yr wife just bought in the market).. building that muscle in your orchard, picking up fruits and flowers.

I mean, i wish, I can do that. Living in peace...have enough to survive without that credit card bills coming every now and then. I dont want to be famous.. definitely no..

HOW bout you??

Concerto...

A pic in one of my "not so good" performance.. This was in Saloma Bistro for one of my friend's group farewell.. I blamed it on the surround system man hehehe...good times during practices cikanozss...

Keeping with time...

Have you ever wonder why one day you don't have the time to do everything?? and the next day have absolutely all the time to do nothing?

Some people call it time management... I call it "making time"..

This morning I was happily checking my emails, replying them, deleting, putting down some notes, browsing the internet, talking to my lovely next door neighbour, from start of work feeling that i have the time to read some stuff I was suppose to read...

Then at 11, it suddenly struck.. man I had a meeting at 10.. suddenly i "Dont have" anytime? I missed my time.. rushed to the meeting room.. entered with 1 big smile, sat down ,keeping quite and listening.. suddenly i realised that hey!!, they just started, nothing much was discussed yet. So I have the time to pace up and follow the meeting. Its not even my part yet hehehe.. So i "Have Time".. I got it back...

So what is exactly the point I was trying to put here and wasting your time reading it (like anyone actually read this *sigh*). The point is like Albert E. said " Time is relative" relative to what? I guess it is relative to what you want it to be..

If you want it to be relative to one mega exploration project to be finish in 2 years.. i guess time is short. but taking that two years for a project to build one small cat's hse.. that is longgggg...

So I must have lotsa time to write down this rubbish..hehehe

Hey, hows your life??

Don't you sometimes wondered what kind of life you're living in. Wondered how do other people's lifes are? Do they face the same things you're facing. Are their life better and why yours is not as what you've been asking for.

Questions and questions comes out of your head. You are trying to link everything to everything. Making assumptions, expectations, conclusions. Then you get up and get going. Do your everyday chores. Seldom do you get any answers to the questions you've made.

There are many ways people or "experts" see/view this. From religion points... be contempt, accept god's fate, doa's and many other things. From phsycology point of view... your are suffering from overthinking, self-motivation, find a hobby, distract your thoughts.
Then you listen to the elders, they had all the experience in this world about how to live life..

AT THE END... what is it??

I guess only you can answer that question to yourself. Do you accept allah's fate? will you go on with your life and always be happy about it? improving it? doing something about it... and so many more

.... the conclusion I made... "NO CONCLUSION" only one thing certain.. I AM GOING TO DIE 1 DAY...
see if anyone ever understand what i was trying to say hehehehe.....