Geneva... Bloody Expensive!!!!

Having the time of the whole of saturday wandering around Geneva,, I now realised why the hindi movies really like to do their shot here. At least 4 or 5 movies I've seen ( accidentally heheh) were shot in Switzerland..

The sceneries are amazing. One of the most beautiful country I've seen. I guess you can almost shot anywhere to get a good one.. But one thing I don't get is.. why spent that money.. Switzerland is undoubtfully one of the most expensive place I've ever been.. Yea, i mean I haven't been to the likes of tokyo, new york, milan and so ever.. But I lived in London, have been to Paris, venice...

A short 6 mins taxi cost me 20 swiss franc heheh... There are no cheap or middle cost restaurants.. All of them are high class expensive ones.. maybe that why I heard swiss rearly go out eating.. I mean if they do that.. they'll become bankrupt.. and the porn mags heheh.. cost 20 francs... wat the F*/%... In UK it probably cost 2/3 quids hehehe...

Nevertheless, its a lovely country... But I love my mamak stalls man....hehehe... Ane here i come..

Until the next adventure

Merci...

zurich 23 november 2005

again i find some time writing and updating my blog while i am on the run hehe.. it was a tiring 12 hours fliht from klia to zurich airport in switzerland. have another connecting flight to geneva. have to attend a meeting here about the job.. my head is pounding and the body is aching.. some people would think that wow you should be thankful that u had the chance to go somewhere.. yes and no.. yes for the opportunity.. No for the headache hehehe...

Anyway,, I am missing my wife and Baby shahirah...

On some other note... The keyboard here is not you usual QWERTY but QWERTZ... SO u have to be careful on the interchanging Z and y letters..

Hope to update my blog more often..

Damm it

It is really wierd tough.. I find time to write somthing on my way to Istanbul hehehe...Had to go for a meeting .. alone "sigh" a bit boring..

Hari raya was fun for me.. Having Shahirah to bring around for this raya is abit tiring but fun when people start giving duit raye hehe.. I know it was not for me.. and the wife is the one who has the job to collect to money and keep it.. I dont even know how much she actually collected this year.. Her first raya..!!!

Emm when I actually have some more ides pouring down my brain.. the timing does not permits.. Need to go for my next flight from singapore to istanbul.. Wish me luck!! hopefully I will not make the wrong decision for PETRONAs hehehe..

Once in a while

My biweekly update hehehe....

Ramadhan is here.. a month full of blessing. This year I really hope that ramadhan will bring me closer to the creator. Leaving ramadhan in a way that I'll feel like a new born baby. Wish I could cry more at nights.. it gives me the wonderful feeling that anything, everthing, and all things are lifted off my chest. That allah the almighty has taken all that.. and all will be ok...

" For Allah, and to him I'll come home"

ya watever..

I guess creating and maintaning a good blog is a hard work if you personally do not have that intimate passion for writing. (Creating it may be easy enough)

You'll probably have a lot of thinking done, putting it on writing is not the same. read a few writing tips before. Some say just write what you think. forget about all the grammar stuff, linking the sentance, making sure they are logical and understandable.
The most important thing is to make sure that all that you want to say have been said. Knowing that people can enjoy what you have written. (if evey people read your writings)...

Perlukah saya menukar bahasa penulisan dari bahasa inggeris ke bahasa melayu. Mingkin ini akan banyak membantu saya mengembangkan idea yang ada dan meningkatkan pengusaan bahasa saya,.. hehehe...

anyway lots have happen lately... My lovely doughter is almost 2 months. I mean she is hard.. mengamuk selalu.. And when she does that, she usually likes to be with mama.. with abah... she'll cry even harder hehe.. I guess she can sense the scent of her mama... and she she senses the smelly abah.. She'll be histerical.. heheh.. smelly abah...

Not what you would expect

Coming to office this morning hoping to finish off the report that suppose to be out by last week. Than the big man said.. talk to my 2nd man.. 2nd man is MC.. than.. wait tomorrow..

Then so call the presentation was cancel..

Shud have stayed in Phg temaning my wife cos the mom-in-law is still at kpg.. was thinking of taking mc today,, but because of these two "big" things, i decided to come to work.. now neither can be completed.. what a waste... Shian my wife..

The it....

First time in months I had the chance to go out "lepaking" at mamak at nite since I got married. Not that Ireally missed it, but it was "best".

We talked a lot, about this and that.. the world, work, family, religion, sports .. the norms of man talk..

Once in a while,, some cute and when we were lucky sexy chicks walk past us.. Man that one i missed heheh... I can't remember the last time I went out for KL's nite life.. probably to the "Beach" some time early last year.. Hot chicks everywhere man in KL.. what you have to do is look around hehe.. But I do like this new life.. Serene could be the word to describe it..

Though,, sometimes its stressful.. "letih" to say...

The one thing bugging me now is I can't seem to make my mind to stop "flying" here and there.. It can't relex.. Works, future, life, money etc etc etc... all come in at one time. And when that happen, it is the most tiring time... need some relexin method like Yoga or sometin..

......................................................I shud be off........................................

Neither here nor there..

Mondays are becoming worse for me now..

LEft Mentakab for KL at about 7 this morning. Kisses the wife and Shahirah goodbye.. The loneliness feeling creeping up even its just 11 now..

It is hard, my body is here but my mind is there... hoping that they always be in good health, happy and all. wondering what is it they are doing rite now. Not knowing kills me.. knowing would probably does the same if it isn't what you want to know...

The word "tawakal" is a harder word to follow than to say. Can you really say that you'll accept EVERYTHING in allah's willing for anything, whatsoever happen to your love ones when you are not there with them.

Listening to my heart... How small and insignificant myself to what has been writen down for my life by allah.. May he bless me with a wonderful life.. amin...

Wala wula wali

Dear my self,

Wife and my daughter is at the kampung rite now.. feel a bit lonely at times.. luckily mom is at home with me.. but she really wanna go home also.. maybe friday.. depends if she has recovered from her flu or not..

Mom can't really stand living in KL for that long... She used to say that she wants to take care of me.. I never had the opportunity.. but now when there is one.. she seems to be reluctant.. thinking of her house lot.. maybe thats the "hikmah" I never had a place of my own before.. if not maybe troubles come..

anyway... ....

Finally,, baby is here

Last week was a hectic one for me...

On wednesday... my wife was admitted to the hospital...
On thursday,, she had her c sec...

And the baby was safely delivered... a healthy but rather small baby..
Insyallah she'll grow fast...

huh....

I am bored.. its monday...I can't really concentrate or focus on what should I do..bla..bla bla...

Expect my wife to deliver soon.. maybe around this week...

ARhgggg...........

Wierder Dreamzsss...

For this past few days I had wierder dreams than I ever had before. Not quite sure what was the reasons. Could be that I am a bit anxiuos as my wife's pregnancy get closer to the time, or I am bit tired of thinking some heavy stuff lately.

Last night was particularly interesting. It was like I were with some group of people I can't really recognize. We were having this "get together thingy" ( you know how dreams can be very vague). In that they offer me some alcoholic drinks. I was suppose to be something like champange or wine or something. what I can remember is that the drink is very thick. Gluei like liquid.

Anyway, in the dream I was having a major concious thinking that alcoholic drinks are HARAM. So shoudn't drink it. But these people kept on urging and urging me to drink it. with lots of reasons I can't really understand.

At the end, I decided to have it. I drank the liquid. Hence the effect takes on. Felt dizzy, and you know.. drunk like feeling.. I don't really understand the feeling cause I never actually felt "mabuk" before.

Suddenly.. jeng jeng jeng... U know.. wake up and realised it was dream....

Nites before.... more like wife gave birth stuffs...

As the time gets closer

Yesterday was the 35th week of my wife's pregnancy. Another week means she's already nine months into the pregnancy. I am a bit anxiuos plus "tak sabar" for the baby to come hehehe.. and also a bit worried for what will happen thoughts. Will accompany her to the next check-up cuase I can sense that she's also gets more tense for the checkups. Especially when the doc said that they may want to perform the C sec if the baby ain't growing to what she should (I use the word she as to refer to the potential sex of the abby).

We have prepared most of the essentials I think. We have the baby stuff, clothes, pampers, towels, blankets, pillows, "tilam", minyak yuu Yee and others.. oh ya.. those cute stokings and hats... hehe..
The only thing I haven't bought is the "periuk tanah" for the "uri".. hell no what is it call in english.

I gought the essentials for the mama as well. BTw that's what we decided to call for mom. daddy would be ABAH hehehe... Bought the kain batiks and the post-natal stuff..

Please pray for our safety if you read this...

Mencari Cinta... the Blog version

One of my friend suggested in his blog that we make a Blog version of the current "HIT" show in Tv3 "Mencari Cinta".

I just volunteered my Blog for that... I'll be the moderator + coordinator for searching the guys and the Dream Girl.

We'll take just 5 guys for this version..

Every week there'll be some sort of task for the guys which they have to do to impress the Lady. Whomever SuckS!! then she will vote you out... The last Man Standing win the girl...

Now the problem is finding the guys.... and the girl....

PRIZE... a long last relation ship... hehehe

What would you write??

I always have some passion in writing. However, I never actually done any serious writing apart from that one time when I sent an article to a writng competition. It must have been 8 or 9 years ago. Got back a thank you letter for sending in the article. Guess I did'nt win it ( uhuuu... for sure you didn't).

So what should I write about....

Serious titles
- The state of Education System in Malaysia
- Parenting for young parents

got stuck in work.....

What happened.....

Just sharing what has happened for these few days...

London Bombing

One of the worst incident this year. Not since the Sept 11 attacked we've seen a major attack to a major city.
The question in mind is...why?

Why London? what is it these terrorrist expect by attacking London. The day G8 summit happened in Gleneagles,Scotland and the day London annouced as the winner for Olympics. Where MI5? Wheres the intel?
CIA and FBI? Dont you guys know anything? If I were to set up bombing operation fro SEVEN spots in a major city, definitely I will couse al least a small stir in the underground arena... at least I'll need the supplly for those bombs...

And why blame the Muslims?? What have we done to you guys?? absolute nothing...

The NKVE flyover flown down to Earth

How the hell was it?? Those engineers design a several tonnes of concreet to fall down?? This is a classic example of human errors.. big mistakes... Now swallow your own shit...

Modern medicine... and what it will cost us

Bought my wife the package by LEESA for after delivery stuff last weekend. Cost me RM350. In that we got the "bengkong" or countour correctuor the called it. few pills, Some herbs and stuff. Good business I would guess making all these stuff. The good thing is it makes our life a whole lot easier..don't have to boiled that "Ubat Periuk" herbs for hours anymore huh.. or wraping your self with the 5 metres cloth. They took forever to put on and take off.

Work...

Emm.. ;-) --> see what I meant???

Money.. money...money....

Remember that opening song in Donald Trump's The Apprentice?

Put life in a very focus one minded way.... MONEY.

What does money actually meant.

According to Wikipedia http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Main_Page

"Money is any marketable good or token used by a society as a store of value, a medium of exchange, or a unit of account".

It is usually associated with some sort of paper with someone's face on it (BTW, why do you need somebody's face on the paper that you exchange for your own stuff??). However historically money exist in several medium including metals (e.g gold, silver). Nowadays money exist in Credit cards, Bank bonds, Insurance policy, even the Touch n Go card.

MONEY = POWER or POWER makes MONEY?

At the end... it is up to you to see what money really meant. Some people see it as life, some as necessity, some just something to get on with life... What ever it is ... MONEY is definitely not = GOD....

What do we talk about again?

What do men or women talk about when they are together?

Men
- Football
- Cars
- Games
- Gadgets
- WOMEN

Women
- Makeup
- Gossips
- Gossips
- MEN

Hence, Men talk about women, and Women talk about Men..















Trying the Bloging image thinggy

Bad morning anyone??

The Lightrail Transit (LRT) system is experiencing some problems this morning.. There where huge crowds waiting at the station. Luckily I got in the second train that arrived in at Tmn Melati. The unfortunate thing however, the first door to exit where I was standing failed to opened at KLCC station. Hence we were "rugbying" ourself to the next available door to exit. The makciks, the nyonyas, the aunties, the aweks, the blokes, were all rushing and not considering others. I mean it was hell. I can imagie now what happen in a human stempede situation.

On that subject, the most important thing to do for you to survive is to stay on TOP of other people.. hehehe..

BTW There was this very cute girl standing near me.. I mean she is really cute. But don't have the guts to say Hi....

Afundi ....

The AF3 fever is all around us.. Was just talking about it with me colleugues. We even had some analysis on the amount of investment neede for u to win the Total prize money.. The total sent for AF2 were a whooping 15 million SMS. Hence if the winner last year won it by 20% votes, that akready count for about 3 million SMS.. Hence the conclusion.. Yep you can't buy your way to win AF.. Need the Fans.. There are just to much investment

So how can you win it? the answer is MARKETING... that includes promotion, branding, imaging, MOTO and stuff.. You see.. Mawi does sing well, but the sensation he brings that will make him win.. definitely not 100% the talent.. We are looking at dramas, affection, an idol (similar to Malaysia Idol), someone similar that we can connect...

Once they know that you are different ( Having Rich Dad like Idayu).. then you are out.. Nobody wants you..

By the way, I need to do some MARKETING my self.. this blog is helpless!!!!

Out of Fuckussed

Thoughts come and go so quick that you lose your focus instantly. Seems it is happening to me lately. Work especially. Seems that there are a lot to do.. but I can't pin it down to the things that need to be done..

Prioritize... may be that is what I should do..
Holidaying?? ... emm could be nice
Stop thinking all together... wait and see what will happen and deal with it then. Yea rite if only you can do that you planning freak...

I always tought that I am some sort of an advanturous person who live by the day.. But now more and more I think I become and look to the uture planning kinda guy.. Won't take unneccessay risks. Keeping it all together. Always have that safety margin or safety net securely so that I will know exactly what to do if something should happen.

how is it I became like this? age has instill its effect... I become adults.. Responsible adults... thinking about the family and kids,,, ;-)

Arggh I am outa fuckuussed again.. darn it....

1st Annivessary

It was our first anivessary yesterday (Alhamdulillah). We kinda celebrated it in Melaka. Had a moderately simple dinner together. By next annivessary itwill be three of us hehe.. insyallah. Talk about lots of things,, about how we had survive the first year of marriage with lots of ups and downs.. now I really learned that Patience is truly a virtue. Our pray that we will last until the end of our life...

Then today back to office wirk hehe... never feel that motivated the first day of the week.. (By the way when was I ever felt motivated)

.................end of ideas........................

The Phi .....

Currently reading "The Da Vinci Code" by Dan Brown

I am really amaze by these Enlish/american writer who can really come up with such an amazing story board. How the hell did he think about writing this fiction.. I mean to create a story of this imagination needs not only vast amount of writing skills but huge amount of research on the art world, Phi numbers how it should all relates to each other and bla bla bla...

Most of malay writes about Love, cinta, kasih sayang, sex, bohsia, bohjan, jiwa raga, bunga2 arghhhh..... please do something about it. I remember reading wonderful work from the masters malay writes, usman awang and other.. I read the Novel Salina, which about the struggled life of a sister who works as a prostitute to raise her kid brother ( all the moral issue you can think yourself). I certainly remember the novel Imam, about this young imam (head of mosque) whos struggled to convinced other old people to change and open their mind towards new ways of attracting people especially those young people to the mosque.

Then even the old novel, "bagaimana si awang menjadi raja" that was good, its the story about this young poor guy who went out of his village to learn and gather knowledge to be better in life. he met with this wise WoMEN (not men mind you) who told him to learn about three things. Then he will be successful.. I can't remember all of it but I do remember that she said, Tajam itu lebih baik dari tumpul. So this wang guy will always make sure his small blade that he carries along with him will always stay as sharp as possible.

Then it goes down hill.... all the cinta2 novel.. which target the young market of to Malays.. fill them with the idea that all you need in life is cinta sejati... then have sex,,, Fuck it....

Why la some people....

Its been quite some time that I ever had any real motivation to do any jobs (not that I have any in urgency)

One thing I learn bout the new b#$s... When something goes wrong,, he will freak out and all the not so nice words come out.. all so gelabah one hehe.. like he's losing the job or something.. worse come to worse.. you'll be demoted to hihihi.. serves you man..

Well not my problem anymore...

Was surfing and reading some other people's blog just now. One interesting blog was by this "Uncle" which I presume to be 55-60 years old (didn't bother to really check his age) - but I know that he's retired.

I mean his blog probably has more linking, Java language and better than mine.. He's probably more computer literate than I am. He wrote long articles.. Reminisecing (excuse my spelling) about old times. Seems like blogging is one of his hobby.

Anyway, I am in search of a business to do.. lately being toying with bookshop idea. I mean my wife likes it cos she likes to read anyway. something to provide the extra income to usto pay the car, house etc hehe.. We want to buy gen2. Is it a worth buy? maybe and I really don't know...

I mean I dont really bother about the car performance, handling and all the crap.. (what can you expect from a Proton car? --> Cheap price) However, I am more concern on wheather we will be able to survive on daily basis with just about RM1000/month on total net income.. after deducting all those crap of paying the Hse etc.. Food, and baby is coming.. all of that.., I suppose to provide for the family. What can I do man...

No good nagging about it and do nothing... NEED to do something..

Hey whats up....

Gosh... day by day passed and I keep on forgeting to update my blog..
Emm let see:

I won the I wish contest, get voucher worth RM 200 from PETRONAS. My luck ran out at the end. Tot I would get at least 1 wish, unfortunately hehe...

Went to singapore last week for a conference. Stayed for 2 nights in Hyatt. Very nice hotel. Love to be there again.. with chicks if possible hehe..

Plan to buy Gen2.. Wife tot its a good car.. Donno, I guess I am tired of thinking about it. Just buy la. She is the one who wants to pay for it. In 1 or two years time.. thinking of buying a merc.. hehehe.. should have one cheap one to use...
E320 40-50K...

OK... till here...

There you go.. the story...

LIFE IS GREAT

Maria came to me last night with the gloomiest face I’ve ever seen. With tears flowing down her beautiful face, she said “Pak Usu, why my life is like this?”

I asked her back “What’s bothering you?”

“Boys at school are so mean, they call me names. Plus there’s so many homework that I have to do, mum and dad are not home yet.” She murmured in between her sobbing.

Suddenly she screamed, “I hate my life!!”

Gently I hugged her and said "Be grateful to your life, life is great".

“No matter how much you think that your life could have been better, or your face should have been prettier, or your parents could be richer and more understanding. Wake up and realize that your life is much better than most of other people in this world. Having pimples, using old handphones or shoe brand, unpopular, does not mean it is end of the world.”

Pausing for a second, I continued “Most of other people are doing a lot worst than we are. Do you know that approximately 850 million people worldwide are malnourished. Worldwide, there were some 17.1 million refugees and displaced persons at the end of 2003. Largely as a result of wars, political turbulence, civil conflict and social unrest.”

Sometimes you don’t even have to look far away to realize how lucky you are. To have a house that is comfortable to live in, nice foods on the table, parents whom always love you, friends and teachers at school. There are a lot more good things that we always take for granted. We always look for something that we do not have. When what we should do is to look at all the things that we have.

“Be happy with what you have. Love your parents. Respect your teachers. Have fun with your friends. Don’t feel so bad if sometimes you do not get what you want, or the boy you like is not being nice to you, or your teachers are strict.
You are still young to worry too much. The most important, never hate yourself for what you are cause LIFE IS GREAT.”

“Thanks Pak Usu, I don’t hate my life anymore” she went back upstairs with smile on her face.


"To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance"
- Oscar Wilde (1854-1900)

Life is good

I intent to write this as the article for my wife's school magazine

LIFE is GOOD

If by magic, someone young like you guys said that he or she will listen to only one thing from me and will keep it in the heart. I will say this "Be grateful to your life, life is great".

No matter how much you think that your life could have been better, or your face should be prettier, or your parents should be richer and more understanding. Keep in mind that your life is much better than most of other people in this world.

== Need to go.. will continue this.... Tungguuuu

Lighten up your morning

Sometimes there's something to lighten up your morning (especially this gloomy monday morning hehe). For this morning, for me it was the laughter of these two kinderkids in the LRT. Really cheer me up. They were teasing each other and giggling like mad in the midst of our gloomy faces. It was fun. No worries.

Surely you remember those days when it was all fun and play. There were no worries about paying the damm bills, facing your boss in the morning, rushing in the public transport, thinking about everything and worrying about everything else. Life was good man. It is still good now, just abit more stressful hehehe.

Thats the wonder of being kids. Nowadays, kids grew up too fast. By the time they start school. Fun and play kinda stop. Parents pressuring them to excel, tuition almost everynights, then the piano class, the internet, the Astro, the co-curiculum, the more and more..

Where have all the games gone?
Galah panjang
Main getah
Polis n tri (I think it should have been Police and sentri or something)
bicycle race
hide and seek
batu seremban
Cepe

We even played with the toadpoles for heaven sake hehe.. What a wonderful years...
For my kids ... I wish them to have fun as I had it.. Then thy'll appreciate more being a kid..

Don't let go of that kid in you...

Dear diary

Dear diary,,

Why do some start writing in their diary with "Dear Diary". Its like you are talking to your diary. Letting out everything in your heart to a piece of paper that seems to understand your feelings. Listening carefully with all that you want to say. Agreeing with all your points, comments, dislikes and likes. Only to accept but never reply back. What a listener. Can't get any better than that. And the best thing is, it never reveals your secret unless being forced by others.. most of the times its your fault not keeping it far enough from other hands reaching into it.

But soon enough you'll get bored with it. Not replying back when what you need is the them saying "Its ok honey, you'll be alright", "Its not your fault, shit happens" and other comforting sentences. you're filled with anger, not knowing what to do. hoping that you diary will eventually write itself the solutions that you are waiting for. "Honey, don't look back, leave him/her, they are unworthy people to be with you", "Go for it, slap the fuc*%$^g asshole..."," Next time, you'll get a better luck", "Put it down as Chelsea 3-2 to Liverpool, you'll win a fortune", hehehe.

(It would probably be a good storyline for a telemovie, Hero = Rosyam Nor, Heroin = Siti Sarah, The diary = APek Senario kuang kuang kuang)

What am I talking abot???

Is it hard to be kind now...??

While driving this morning, I saw a terrible act by our youngsters nowadays..

There was this guy with sight impaired condition (buta lah) who was trying to cross the road at a traffic light near Tmn Melati LRT. With courage he managed to cross the road all by himself but almost got hit by a passing MPV. The bad thing was, there were these two selfish, no-brainer kids in high school uniforms who were just a few metres away from that guy and they offered no help to the guy!!!

I mean what was that? I was short of tempelengi the kids...

Courtesy... in need to write something about that for them...

lesson in life

My wife was appointed to be the coordinating teacher for her school magazine. So, I asked her wheather I can contribute to the magazine. Naturally, she said yes knowing that there is a 90% chance I wouldn't be bale to pass her the article in time hehe...

So what do I want to write? My readers would be teenagers 13-16 years old. Half of them can read english article well, half of them can understand some of the words, and probably some wouldn't even understand a word. Hence, should I write in English or Malay?

Writing in Malay would be a challenge as I rarely write in Malay nowadays. Most of my writings are in English (altough the grammar, spelling, choice of words, the sentences may be crap).

So, not knowing what to write about, in what language it should be, how many words I can write, and wheather anyone would be interested to read it.... I should start now..

life goes on

I just moved to a new rented place this weekend. Bandar Sri Damansara. The APt is nice and all. But going back and forth to work is a bit of a hassle. Got used to being close enuf to workplace. Setapak is near to KLCC hehe.

Most of people in Dmanasara area will take the LRT from either Kelana Jaya or Bangsar, but I took a slightly different route. Drove all the way to Tmn Melati, park there and thake the LRT. Donno, maybe having lived in that are for quite sometime make me comfortable with the ways there. Feel like I can time myself better if I take that route.

Moving is tiring.. so if you wanna move, make sure that you don't do it often. Packing things, unpacking them, carrying heavy furnitures, finding the lorry to charter. If you have money, then hiring professional movers maybe the answer.

Went to Ikano Power Centre in Mutiara Damansara yesterday with the intention of buying the extension cable for the TV and the washing machine connection for the pipe. Budgeted around 20-30 RM.

Ended up with one I-Squezz leg massaging thingy by OSIM (comes with free eye massager) this and that tha cost us about RM1400... hehehe.. Guess we are bad at managing our money. Fortunately the I-squezz can be paid in instalment (18 months)..

When we arrived home, the cable is not really the one we looking for. The pipe connection doesnt fit, hehe.. SO I had to be a McGyver and use my pen-knife to make bigger holes for the connector. Managed it after bout two hours. And managed to ruined another pipe in the kitchen sink. What a day.. After all that I guess,, Life goes on..

"And this morning it rains like cats and dogs and snakes and chikens and horses..." what a way to start the day...

Watever....

Damm it man.. its been some time since I update anything in my blog,,
Not that nothing has happened or I haven't thought of anything to write..

Its more like I just don't have the damm urge to write anything.. For someone like me, I guess writing shoukd not be a career , hehehe.. I need that "BIG" urge to sit down and write.. once I have that then I'll write.. If not .. watever....

wish I have something this afternoon to write...

Over thinker??

Apart from the morning thoughts, I am having morning self urges now hehe..

I once read a book about why women overthink.. I guess it doesn't happen to women only hehe.. sometimes I have this morning urges to think and think and think of everything in my life.. making conclusions, new ambitions (was thinking of writing a book about "being contempt"), self motivating.. trying to be positive..

sometimes i wish my brain would just stop all those unwanted thoughts and concentrate on the more important onces.

Funny that when it comes to writing it out here... my brain stops working hehehe... i wonder how those people can write and write, idea flowing likw the water from mountains.

by the way, is there any linkage for what the title says to what I am writing now? I am confius my self... arhhgggghhhhh.....

For that... lets stop here and read other poeple's blog,, seems more interesting..

Morning "bright" thoughts

When you wake up every morning, and your brain starts working, have you ever had that urge to wonder about life and make some sort of conclusion about life?

I've been doing that lately. I tend to just lay down thinking endlessly about everything and then make some sort of conclusions of my earlier thoughts.

yesterday was ;
"you can only try to make someone heart accept you, but you don't have the power to guarantee that. At the and, its always up to god say" .. being philosophical...

This morning was ;
"The only person that can make you happy is you"

then it follows by few more like "be what you suppose to be" if you are working - be a worker, if u are a husband - be a husband... and many more.. Seems like I was trying to motivate myself. Positively or negatively.. I donno...

I guess that was the reason.. self motivation.. that was what i was trying to do...

For that matter...it works up to 11 a.m. today, hehehe

Who to be blame...

You know those sections in the paper that people write in to tell stories about their sad unwanted life or problems to get advice from some dude (supposed to be da-pro) they don't even know. Anyway, I read one gd story.

Its about this lady who has married to a guy for 27 (yes twenty seven)years whom she called "Evil and Stingy". The guy never contribute into the family, even spending the family's money. He promised so much but never kept it. And a lot more bad things I can't really remember. I mean in "normal" relationship, she'll probably left the guy years ago. But why she stays? Is it because of the children? family pressures? Not wanting to let go? Love? Why can't she say something. Has she done everything possible to change him?

Whose fault is it? Taking it simple we'll probably would say that it is the guy that should be blamed. But is it the whole truth? In relationship is it always 1 person fault?

Thousands questions can be made, and thousands answers can be told. You'll get so confius even the logic seems to be in-logical. So... What is it? Can we simplified this (I read somewhere that human brain are made to simplified stuff).

The answer probably no. There's no way we can truly understand and comprehen wat exactly happen and who is to be blame. Only god knows.

I have my relationship problems. Been there, done that, felt those,.. Happy, on the cloud nine, dreamland, sad, anger, confius, betrayed and lots more. At the end I said, for whatever it is, after all those effort in keeping the relationship, making it happen (and if it works be happy man), accept your fate. Thats all, accept it. As if it was that easy....

continue....

Ok let us continue with the topic.

The thing is, I sometimes wonder and confuse of what really we are our dilemma. Why do we associate our self with those traits and are we really that bad?

If I ask you… are you proud to be Malay? What are the good things about us?
I am sure that many of us will be able to list down hundreds of our good traits without many problems.

Subsidy…
A magic word that all of us Malay knows. The fishermen, the farmers, the businessmen, the school, the students, the parents and many more asked for it. Its like we can’t live without it. Or can we?

This morning some people were complaining about increase of school charges as government are not subsidizing any more (at least not as much as they were). They used to pay just about $15 for books. Now they have to pay more than $100 for each of their children for school charges. I can understand. With the price increase of everything now, you can’t expect to chuck in more money for your children.

The thing is… are we the only one suffering? The price increase effect is across the board. Its call inflation (by the way you can’t get 0% inflation – economically doesn’t make sense). All of us are effected. The Chinese, the Indians, the “orang asli”, the Singh’s, the mix… everybody. Never heard that the Chinese complaint about not getting subsidies. Cos they never got it… of course they complaint about the high cost of living. Who doesn’t? Maybe they don’t even realized that subsidies actually exist.. I’m not sure myself.

Enuf on that one..

And many more should I have the time to write about it…

But for all of it… I am one proud “MALAY”. Will always be a Malay.. “belacan” is a food. I guess the “positive” changes has to start somewhere and many more out there already started it. SO if you are a Malay… be one, be a damm good one.. as it is us who can make the change, not others.

“Tak kan Melayu hilang di-dunia” …Laksamana Hang Tuah..

The Malay Dilemma... is it??

Were taking to people bout "The Malay Dilemma" for past few days. Think of writing something bout it..

Firstly, what do you define by the "Malay" race in this context? Is it Malay in Malaysia only? How bout Javanees in Indonesia? Moros in Philiphines? The Sri lankan Malay? Cape towners?

Do all of us have the same traits? same thinking? same attitudes? Can Tun Mahathir's dilemma be subjected to all of us Malays? or the Malaysian "Malays" only. And is there anything to relate us the Malaysian "Malays" to the other "Malays"?

Got to go for lunch... to be continued...

My favourite fruit

Was surfing people's pics in Flickr...
Found a pic of my fovourite fruit.. coool



Jambu air... emmmmm... cicah with kecap sambal... fuh!!!

Lets check out!!

Learned a new trick today... how to link a word here to a website..
So my friend's blog is tha victim heheh... check out khalil's blog page..

it ain't that cool hehehe....

Famous.... is that what we want?

Hey!!! I've got people reading my blog..
Some of you might say " what?? I have hundreds visiting my blog everyday man.."
But for me this is something new..

Then more come and read. More and more and more... until maybe one day I'll be world famous hehe.

The question is... is that what we want?

Being famous (or in-famous for some people) is a thing that most of us would say yes. Being treated like a star, driven in a stylo 100 ft limo, flashes pops whenever you get out of the car, young fans shouting and crying (and fainting) when you waved. Being guarded like a VVVVIP, driven in a nuclear bomb proof BMWs, FBI guns pops when a 10 yr old kid's balloon pop!, young greenpeace activist shouting (and throwing shit) when you open your mouth.

But some of us would prefer a more quite life. Away from those flashes and gossips in the tabloids. Waking up in the morning, breathing the cool breeze of "kampung" air, feeding your chickens, freeing your birds, chasing your cat (for stealing that fish yr wife just bought in the market).. building that muscle in your orchard, picking up fruits and flowers.

I mean, i wish, I can do that. Living in peace...have enough to survive without that credit card bills coming every now and then. I dont want to be famous.. definitely no..

HOW bout you??

Concerto...

A pic in one of my "not so good" performance.. This was in Saloma Bistro for one of my friend's group farewell.. I blamed it on the surround system man hehehe...good times during practices cikanozss...

Keeping with time...

Have you ever wonder why one day you don't have the time to do everything?? and the next day have absolutely all the time to do nothing?

Some people call it time management... I call it "making time"..

This morning I was happily checking my emails, replying them, deleting, putting down some notes, browsing the internet, talking to my lovely next door neighbour, from start of work feeling that i have the time to read some stuff I was suppose to read...

Then at 11, it suddenly struck.. man I had a meeting at 10.. suddenly i "Dont have" anytime? I missed my time.. rushed to the meeting room.. entered with 1 big smile, sat down ,keeping quite and listening.. suddenly i realised that hey!!, they just started, nothing much was discussed yet. So I have the time to pace up and follow the meeting. Its not even my part yet hehehe.. So i "Have Time".. I got it back...

So what is exactly the point I was trying to put here and wasting your time reading it (like anyone actually read this *sigh*). The point is like Albert E. said " Time is relative" relative to what? I guess it is relative to what you want it to be..

If you want it to be relative to one mega exploration project to be finish in 2 years.. i guess time is short. but taking that two years for a project to build one small cat's hse.. that is longgggg...

So I must have lotsa time to write down this rubbish..hehehe

Hey, hows your life??

Don't you sometimes wondered what kind of life you're living in. Wondered how do other people's lifes are? Do they face the same things you're facing. Are their life better and why yours is not as what you've been asking for.

Questions and questions comes out of your head. You are trying to link everything to everything. Making assumptions, expectations, conclusions. Then you get up and get going. Do your everyday chores. Seldom do you get any answers to the questions you've made.

There are many ways people or "experts" see/view this. From religion points... be contempt, accept god's fate, doa's and many other things. From phsycology point of view... your are suffering from overthinking, self-motivation, find a hobby, distract your thoughts.
Then you listen to the elders, they had all the experience in this world about how to live life..

AT THE END... what is it??

I guess only you can answer that question to yourself. Do you accept allah's fate? will you go on with your life and always be happy about it? improving it? doing something about it... and so many more

.... the conclusion I made... "NO CONCLUSION" only one thing certain.. I AM GOING TO DIE 1 DAY...
see if anyone ever understand what i was trying to say hehehehe.....

Need a new handphone....

I need a new phone... my Hphone doesn't work here in level 35.. for god knows what reason man..
It works perfectly well anywhere else..

Anyone knows where can I get a very good deal.. like anyone actually reading this hahahaha....

Siti - Love it or hate it

Is this someone in your heart?

Some people love siti... others hate her.. for whatever reason they have..
For me let her be man.. Let her be siti

My 1first pic

LOVE when there's still time...

Today I learn how to upload pictues for my blog... maybe we can get this page to be a little bit more interesting...

By the way.. a cousin to my mother, Uncle hanna passed away this morning (al-fatihah). He was about maybe 40+..
Cause of death - Cancer. Was not a smoker..
He had an operation some time last year to remove some cancerous part in his bowels. The operation went well initially. He got back to work. Then he had some radiotherapy session (I am not sure wat is it). The suddenly his body broke down . Literally broke down like a car that pass its time. The cancer spread to the heart and brain. 3 weeks in the gleaneagles.. sadly he passed away this morning.

I went to see him few times. But he can barely talk. Still recognizes people who came tho. One thing i regret it that, before he was admitted back to the hospital, he ask me out for lunch. But work and ignorance took over. I told him that i was busy (i was back then a little bit) and promise to had dinner with him. unfortunately I missed the dinner and never saw him until he was in the hospital.

Man... if I just took the time to go and see him. We might just had that last chance to talk normally and shared some happy thoughts. Maybe he knows that he will not be around for long.. I mean he ask me out.. and I turned him down.

Listen to this... if ever someone close to you ask you to come and see them... Take the effort.. it might be the last time.. when they'r gone.. there's nothing else you can do..

"may Allah put him with the anbia' , shuhada' , alim and the good people in this world"

Education for "non-educated"?

This morning while I was queing up to pay for my RM1.50 Tuna sandwich at our famous RotiBoy shop down there in KLCC, a nice looking and well dress-up lady just simply walk up to the counter and put down her RM 1.50 to pay for her sandwich without queing.

I mean.... whats upss man.. there were like 6/7 more people behind me and most are paying for a bloody sandwich.. Everyone was queing. Who gave you the F#*&^ing rights to simply go and pay without queing. IF you are an un-educated person from the bloody kampung then maybe I'll give you a some lame excuse cos you don't understand the rules of educated people. even the makcik behind me was queing properly.

But you are well educated (I presume with your glittered cloth and look). BUT you are "NON-EDUCATED". No manners, I mean this is what we are... mentality man...

Mondays..... all with the blues and shity people...

What Wrong with us?

Taking the public transpot every morning to work can really be a challenge.. not so much challenge to get to the lrt station or to wait for the train but to look and see the characteristic and attitude of us "Malaysian" people.

Wangsa Maju station is one of the busiest station. People are queing for the train non-stop.. The train will be almost pack at this point. SO comes the misery of the people at the next station. The thing is.. sometimes there are still space enough to fit in 3/4 more persons at the next station. But none of us will move that few inches so that our fellow Malaysians can come into the train at get to work the same time as us. Usually with "blank" face, we will stand-hold of our space and will not even move a centimeter to let other people come in.

Some poeple will push in hard to get in, but others will just walk away. Hoping that the next train will be empty.. I sincerely hope it will for them. I do...

I used to drive to work.. That is damm hell as well... The jam.. the driving attitude.. Onced I was driving with my pragnent wife and mom, a car just simply cut in front of us. when i did "honk" him, he got out of the car, screaming like hell to us. I mean.... its you that made the rude mistake.. and when someone "honk" you.. its us who is wrong... I really hate these road bully..
just the other day, a man was brutally murdered by two of these animal, rude "road Bully"..

SO its true lik the PM said... First Class Develop Country Facilities... not so first class attitude man,,,

WHAT WRONG WITH US????

Enough money... I am going back to live in "kampung"...

Doh!! already miss a day

Doh!! I did missed a day already... hopefully don wanna be like what malays said "Hangat-hangat tahi ayam" or the direct translation "like chicken shit, come out hot, few seconds cold already" hehehe... Meaning: Only motivated or eager in the begining, and it quickly disappeared.

One of the reason maybe is that i don't really have any idea of what to write.. What do you people "bloggers" write?

(paused for few minutes)

I used to write before.... but mostly it stops in the middle. So the proverb must be true for me. Erger at the beginning but lost it in the middle somewhere..

Once I try to write a novel which turn our to be a long story which turn out to be a short story which at the end turn out to be an unfinished story hehehe..

In summary the story was suppose to be like this:

It a story about a guy who life was lost, alone, confusing... he had a good degree and job and he was tying to remember how the hell actually he up to be like this.. what was wrong, what happen, what did he do? Why there no one to help him to realise that hey do something with your life,, make it right.. What world does he's in?

Its a journey of a man soul searching, finding facts, finding the right path to come back to where its suppose to be...

Than the story stops and I lost interest already... I they call it "writer block".. I simply call it the "lazy block"..

hopefully this blogging thing can start me somewhere.... I do need to write the "Daily News highlight" on the Oil and Gas industry as part of my Job every morning.. arghh!!! usually i did the cut and paste thingy...

There's alwayz first time for everything

(Argghh I tried to view my blog page but I can't!!!)

Maybe today is the first time I'll use this blog for for heaven sake.. let it not be the last time..

I'll try to write something everyday.. sharing the news and stuff with other people in this blog world.. imagine the number of readers we'll gonna get with this thing.. For other people this would probably be something that is nothing anymore.. but for me having the chance to write something and share it with others is definitely worth trying..

Actually the idea to include myself in this blog world of yours is because I read other people's blogs. So I thought to myself why not try this thing..

Guess that it for the first time... news and others coming up soon....
wish me luck in "Blog world" dear fellow bloggers.. or watever you call yrself..