Happy 50th Merdeka Malaysia

It was Malaysian 50th Merdeka celebration last friday. There were lots of fireworks, singing and parties the night before (tough I didn't go to any of them). Just watching it from my apartment and TV. So what does a merdeka means to you? Are we really free and merdeka from everything or we are still being "locked" and colonized in an invisible ways via our mind and soul?

I am looking at myself to answer that. Since I was a baby, I was free actually at least on the physical way. And you cannot deny that I was given the opportunity to learn and acquire knowledge as much as I want to. I had never being deny my rights to the food and way of living that I like. However, of course as you grow up u'll see that there are still few things being locked away from you unless you'll follow the system in place. which some of us may not want too. The media I feel may still be partially colonised by certain party. The way of thinking for most of us are still being "guide" by certain rules and views pertaining certain sides. Thus in that sense we are not fully Merdeka.

However, I love this country. I felt it in my heart when watching the morning Merdeka parade in TV especially when the armies turn to show the strength and muscle power of our soldiers. How our forefathers fight for the freedom of this country. May Allah bless us with rahmat, forgiveness and prosperities. Remember the "Sabak" a mentioned in the Quran, on how they were the people with prosperity and wealth, yet they kufur to Allah. Then Allah punished them with bad land and all.

malas.....

Keeping up the paces...

Yesterday, I was head over moon on giving it out. Today... not anymore....

Malaslah........

Hati yang Lembut

Pagi2 lagi hati aku dah nak marah2. Pasal ape pun tak sure..

That is common for me, not that I really get up and have a go at someone. But just looking at someone doing something that I don't like, then I start to be overly mad.. but just inside ler hehe.. don't know maybe that is not good .. So how do we make our hati becaomes lembut, and tenang?

When we talk about the struggle, fight and battle Muslims have to endure in this world, you are talking about the fight that has been there 1428 years ago. Since our beloved prophet Muhammad SAW started to pass the message from Allah after the revelation of the Quran. Even by his predecessors, prophet Nuh AS, Musa AS, Isa AS and many more the struggles were there and we human always deny the truth from the creator. Today the struggles continue under different environment, enemies and weapons.

It is not the same a Muslim who does nothing and the one who gets up and fight in the way of Allah. That is the question we want to ask ourself. Do we sit down and do nothing or we get up, put a fight to the most that we can and then wait for the result by Allah? May Allah reward us with the wisdom and choose the best way as we always read in surah al-fatihah verse 5: Show me the right/righteous way.

When will these struggles be over and whether Islam will win is not up to us. It is up to allah And only Allah knows better.

How many around you are insane?

In today's materialistic world full of lies and deception, there are a lot of human/people being suck into mental sickness. In your life, have you ever come across at least one insane guy? Most of us would probably say yes. the question is how many around u actually are insane or having some sort of mental illness?

Traveling with the LRT gives me the chance to observe the people around (the setback is there's a lot of viruses flying around). The other day I see this lady who I would say is not insane but looking at her smiling and laughing discreetly to herself all the way from KJ to KLCC is intriguing. She looks fine, dresses well and seems to have a steady job. But, why is it she speaks to herself?

What makes people go off in the head and start having their own world that they live in.

Maybe something we should ponder upon.

I am off

Its 5.35 and I am off.... what did I do for today??
Don't know... Oh ya had some discussion about the project..
"Positive thinking" hehehe..

anyway, happy weekend and don't worry about anything

Good thing About having time

Hey,

What am I complaining about? Nowadays I have more time to re-look at my blog and try to improve it somehow. Wow the functionality has been improved a lot and it is quite simple to do stuff. Yesterday while surfing the net I manage to found this page by this guy writing about how to create a blog from "wordpress". He is selling his e-book for RM50.00. Was tempted to buy it but I do not have any paypal account to do it (that is the next thing to do).

Anyway my point is when you have free time don't be bored but use it to improve yourself...

Blabber

Some news highlights for today 18th July 2007

They have found the bodies of the six army personnel died in the awful helicopter crash incident. The remains were found somewhere near Genting Highlands. Condolences to the family of the deceased and may Allah granted them Syurga Firdaus as a reward for their bravery and shahid.

TAM plane has crashed into the TAM building in Brazil when skidded during landing. The plane was believed to be carrying few hundreds passengers. May they be in peace, and if some of them were muslim may they be under rahmat of Allah.

While the Altantuya murder case is ongoing, I have lost interest in any of the facts and arguments as more and more I found it to be ridiculous and stupid. I am not saying Malaysia Royal Police are stupid, but I have stereotyped and assume that the stupid people controlling the police force are making stupid and blunt arrogant ways of steering this case into their favor.

DPM (Najib) has openly mentioned in one of the Islamic Forum here in KL that Malaysia is an Islamic State. That has causes a stir and few of these "intellectual" people has come out and have their own say about Malaysia status of either an Islamic or as Secular state. For me what important is that we profess and follow the ways of this deen first which has not being held as numero uno, be it we are Islamic state or not.

I am bored

We human are susceptible to being bored. We always do. Its like a fact that have been install in our mind and it is one of Allah's greatness. For that Allah has made a "zillion" and more of different life forms, species, things, matters, molecules and many more. So that we as human has so many ways to live our life that we'll never get bored. But why we do?

It is the way we get rid of this feeling. This ungratefulness and laziness to explore new things. Take myself as an example. Everyday I wake up (weekdays la) and get ready to work, take the LRT to KLCC and then switch on my PC, sit down for half an hour staring at the monitor trying to figure out what to do. Then dreaming some more and getting ready to call one of my friends to lunch [sometimes nobody is there ;-( ] Every single day!! Can you believe it? no right! cause there must be something else I do today that were different from yesterday. Sometimes yes, and that is how I cater my boringness. If not I would have been sinking in deeper into the soul searching matter hehehe..

Change for the better

Seriously, how do you keep motivating yourself or find passion in what you are doing?

Everyday we try to live up in our life to best that we can. Hoping that it will fulfill the desire and doing the best we can. Sometimes we allow ourself to indulge in "boringness" and laziness to the extend that we couldn't be bothered anymore. Much of what I write here does not make sense at all :-)

I try to change department, of which I find more relaxing but unsatisfying. For what reason I can't really tell. Maybe its the lack of work or lack of challenges. But I do have things I need to complete and tasks that haven't been done yet. So, why is it I complaint?

I dont know. Maybe it is just me.........

Days gone by

Days by days gone by as we march nearer to our time. The time when we will be parted from this world and be call back to meet the creator, king of all kings in the whole universe.

As time flies, more that I realized the huge gaps in my knowledge of Islam and my weakness in the faith in this deen (religion). We say that we believe in Allah and Muhammad as the messenger. But do we really give all for the sake of Allah.

Dear ....

I have been confirmed to move to another department by 1st June. New challenges and all, and i pray to allah to make my "hijrah" towards a better one than now. Though the place I am here is not bad, and I am content "bersyukur" with what I have now.

The condition of this country governance is getting worst by the day. From the issues of spending another 22 tax payers milllions for checking the buildings they already overspent to the obsence remarks by the parliment members over a lady are sickening. More sickening is they get out of it!!!

I love my contry, but seeing it go down under these suckers.. maybe I need to do something..

There are much for me to do...but not doing it

You'll probably have heard the title above hundreds of times either from within ourself or from others. Its a sickness that is inside most of us. Commonly known as Lazy, couldn't be bothered attitude.

and with that I end my session ,,, hehehehe

I am not Sad

I am not sad and niether am I feeling the stressful life for not having what I want.

But, how do I describe this....

I am feeling like I have not contributed enough to this life neither do I have enough ration for the hereafter. Have I done enough to satisfy Allah or am I eligible for the Firdaus paradise allah promised for whom he pleased with? have I pleased Allah enough...?

Do I remember him enough every seconds of my life or have I spent it much worrying about money and debts? and devoting mylife for this wordly matters? Am I not happy for the things in this world that I don't get or the lack of my struggles for the heaven in the hereafter?

The more you struggle to be near to Allah than the harder the resistance holding you up. Verily, allah gives hidayah to whom he wishes. I am relax but my mind is about to erupt on the lack of my closeness to Allah. The more I learn about islam the more I realise that I know nothing. I realised of the weaknesses of my iman and the hugeness of Allah's rahmat in this world. In fact, you feel like you are worthlessness in the eyes of your lord which is the worst feeling and the value of his paradise is the biggest rahmat of all.

As I seek for Allah, I pray that Allah seek me back.... verily, Allah is the all knowing and the most merciful.

Mencari Kebahagian

Macam mana kita nak mencari kebahagian? In this life we as human being will always want to be happy in everything.. Kebahagian itu tidak datang seenaknya.

Kebahgian itu sebenarnya datang dari Allah. Allah sahaja lah yang akan memberikan kebahagiaan kepada kita dan kepadanya lah kita meminta. Dah apabila kita dekat pada Allah maka insyallah dia akan memberikan kita kebhagiaan itu, maka yakini lah...

Tetapi memang payah untuk kita sebenarnya yakin pada Allah. Iman itu kadang di atas dan kadang di bawah. Teruslah berusaha. MOga allah mebalasnya. Dan dia sahaja lah yang akan membalas dan maha penentu segalanya.

Fiction ...

ever wonder if you could write a fiction as good as those people making tons of money doing it? The lights of Dan Brown, Stephen King, David Baldacci etc... These people have the wildess imagination and a true story teller. U'll get cought in reading their stories of unexplain human capabilities, deception, mistery, misery. Combine with love and attraction, hate and disgust, sadness and happiness.

I tried to strat a few writing stunts few years back when I was a teenager hehe.. Back then I was reading a lot of Malay novel ( but not those cintan2 one) but more towards the saster and life. The likes of Salina by Usman Awang, Imam, and others,, nowadays its difficult to get good malay novel. Most of it are be filled with the cintan2 novel whcih sometimes can make me feel sick to me stomach hehe.. Tak habis2 dengan cinta, pitus rindu, lust, cemburu, di persimpangan dilema and all. When will us malay get up of this dream of lovey dovey thingy and snap out of it..

The story I was planning to write went something like this...
It started with a story of a hopeless, unwanted, and can't be bothered anymore attitude graduates who is seeking a whole new meaning in life. he wasn't sure of what or where he wants to go in this life, It was pretty much be around lepaking and having fun when possible until one fine day. Soemhting had happen that make him realised that something ened to be done in the life before it ended up as the unwanted soul.

That was it the idea.. the rest I havent made up yet. The end was suppose to be a happy one, Successful with big house and cars, plus a gourjesh wife and pretty/handsome kids hehe.. typical sucks!!!!

I am Muslim... you are?

Dina Zaman had just launched her new book titled " I am Muslim"

Had a chance to read about a couple of pages in the bookstore (still figuring out whether to buy or not this title for couple of personal reasons). My guess is this book meant to "enlightened" the book readers out there on what is the mening of living as a muslim in this crooked country. The confusion of the titles and stories surround by ignorance of the storyteller ( I use this instead of author as this is more of a re-production of other people stories) in the book suggest that it wasn't published/wrote with the mind to uphold the purity, and "keagungan" islam but rather a collection of stories about these so call "muslim" living in their crooked way of "Islam".

It is sad that there were nowhere in the book stories about pious Ustaz/Ustazah and ulamak we have in abundance here in our lovely "crooked" country. About how they love this religion and living they way it should be. Rather than stories of normal crooked Malay/half malay living in pretext of islam still holding "mandi bunga" ceremony, visiting the bomoh, drinking socially during company's annual dinner, and praying twice a year (the eid's) instead of five times a day (in congregation at best).

So who are you telling people that you are muslim as "I am muslim"...

"Heroes"

In this world we are living today, we are constantly being presented by stories of limitless possibilities from the borderless imagination of some people. Be it in the movies, fictional novels, or tv series that you can't wait for the next episode to be aired.

My latest addiction is the new hit-series "Heroes". A story that evolved around ordinary poeple who develop special abilities due to certain genetic anomalies in their genes. Pure genious I would say to the guy who thought of it and expand the storyline to such an extent that it tickle my own imagination. I even had a dream about it once after watching a marathon of episodes I got from a friend downloaded from the net hehe...
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Its My Birthday

Today is my birthday... Allah has granted me 30 years of life...

There's too much for you to thank Allah for. The health that you had for all these years, the food, the sleep you had every single nite, the sight of this amazing world, the hearing for all those noise be it good or bad, the sound mind for you to excel in your studies and life, the arms, the legs, the nose, the throat, the sense of sweet, salty, sour and bitter.

The memories, the love, the fun, the laughter, the tears, the angry, the smile, the sadness.

Mommy, daddy, wife, children, in-laws, brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, grandparents, cousins, friends, colluegues, neighbours, best friends, enemies....

Money, house, cars, laptops, handphones, tvs, PDA, cutleries, cabinets, beds, sofas, astro, dining table, clothes, air-conditioners...

My heart still beating until this moment. But I never know when will it stop and I will leave this world for a life that will be even longer than this... eternity.. for ever and ever.. no ending...

And for all that I have today.. I thank Allah.. May his blessing continue for whatever remaining time I have in this world.. May Allah bless you too.. Amin

Polyandry

We have always heard of the word "polygamy" but rarely the word "Polyandry"

It is basically meant a woman having more than one husband at one time. It is being practice is some secluded part in the world (I have seen the documentary in NG). However, it startled me to read an article about a movement of polyandry fatwa in Syria. Some of these Syrian imams believe that for some reason, polyandry is acceptable in Islam.

It was quoted as saying that some of the verses in quran make reference to men in establishing the requirement of zakat, prayer and fast but the order is understood to apply to women as well. Hence, the rule giving the rights for men to marry more than one should itself apply to the above arguments. In addition there were some argument based on DNA or something which I can rarely understand anyway.

May Allah protect his religion.....

Its time of the year again

It is time of the year again.. PPA time hehe.. a hell of a time that really you don't want to go through except if you think you couldget a merit this year..

The worst is that if you feel you should get the merit this year and you has performed (almost everyone thinks he did that hehe) than like a thunder on a sunny day, it came down faster than the speed of a bullet. No!! You are not qualified to get a merit (again in my case for 4 F%^&*ing years). It sucks.. really it is... For one you feel that whatever you've done for the last one year (gain in my case for 4 F%^&*ing years hehehe) meant absolutely nothing I tell you..

But... I have put my faith in god's decision...

Wedding here and there..

Saturday
Venue: Muar Johor
Wedding: an uncle's (cousin to my mom) son
Food: His own catering. He owns Muara Beryani House. quite famous in Muar. Emm very nice one hehe..

Sunday
Venue: Kuala Mai, Termerloh, Pahang
Wedding: a family's friend
Food: Kampung stlye with Umbut masak lemak..

Am a bit neckered after two days of weddings... wish I am a teacher like me wife.. School holidays break...

Sultan Mosque

Sultan mosque in Arab Street in Singapore... one of surviving place for muslims in the country...

Change, is that what we need?

For couple of weeks people have been asking me why I accepted an offer by a different deparment to do something different than what I am doing right now. To be honest, I don't actually have the 100% sure answer to that. It was offer to me when I am not really looking at changing anything, and whether it will be good for me?

Of course I am a bit uneasy of taking that decision. However, my basic feeling tells me that it is a good decision (wallahualam). Only allah knows if it was really a good decision or not. Surely we don't know what lies in our future nor we have a firm handle of twisting it where we want it to be. We can only try our best and put our upmost confidence that Allah will guide it to our best interest. For that I rest my soul.

What have u done during the weekend??

Sat: Went out for a bfast with the family, its been quite some time since we had our breakfast outside. Nice Roti telor bawang garing hehehe..then went to check out JJ really early in the morning. It didn't even opened yet when we arrived. Felt good just letting Shahirah run around the playground.

Then the wife had to go for a PIBG meeting. Me, just relexing at home. Did cooked cream caramel hehehe.. jadik plak tu. Boleh jadi chef la macam ni.

malam tak de ape sgt.

Sun: Breakfast at home. Bought Nasi Lemak Tmn Tun. Huge one hehe.. did even take lunch that day. In the afternoon we had Mee Sup at the pasar malam.

Teringat zaman dahulu

Teringat zaman dulu2 : masa zaman kat jenan dulu main basketball...

all talking one.. no do..

Out of so many ideas we think about in any one day, how many of them actually end up being done?

Are we thinking too much but not doing enough?

The fact that we are able to think various stuff or ideas at any one time is good actually. however, most of these thoughts, worries, ideas, usually end up in our mind itself. Not many actually end up being done. Thats why I think in Islam there is this concept of Iman, where if you want to be considered as having, profess or activate the iman then you have to fulfill 3 main criterias:-

1. Is to feel and gathered the iman in your hearts
2. Is to admit and say your iman
   
3. IS to perform your iman through actions
   

Without those three being meet than it is not iman..... but rather thoughts you have during the day... Maybe....

yo yo... get it???

Should we write the title or the body of the article first? If we fix thetitle then the tendency would be to write the meat of your article to steer it towards your title, and vise versa.

Actually what is "vice versa", i think its an invation by old writers who are too lazy to write back the stuff they've wrote backwards.
Anyway... what were my plans for today.. Did 50% of it. I sent in the GPw ca,culation for this month. Did call PETROFAC to see if they are interested to joint in as the panellist to the APPI. and emm...

Plan to buy a house in bandar baru bangi.. anyone think it is a really good buy? Our current apartment is fine.. but you know living i an apartment is ahassle by it self. The lift somemore.. egrh..
But I feel contempt to the place I am living now...

In the eye of the beholder

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.... that's what we usually heard. So beauty is subjective to individual so they speak. Unforunately in today's world we are being bombarded with images that suppose to be beautiful and we accept it. Its difficult to say that the hollywood or bollywood cjicks aren't beautiful isnt it? neither it is easy to say that the ugly chicks on the LRT is beautiful...

Anyway what was it wanted to write about?

Pic left - what a use of language

YEa....

Blog:- 23rd january 2007

Today I am going to be able to check my new salary hehe. Alhamdulillah the increment can be considered a healthy one. Still if you think it is not enough than it will never be.

Public transport or drive in?

Being a yellow person of course I will try all possible routes going to office. I had driven several different routes on numerous times and now I use the LRT to work.

Yea, its mainly because it is now too expensive to park at KLCC. But lrt can be suck too!

1- too many people and bloody few trains.

2- when there's problem, woo shit man...

3- smelly2 in the afternoon including me haha.

Syukur je la...still got job what :-)

not the right time

This is not the right time for me to write... have lots of ideas before but when it is time ... all gone..

Been reading Kiran Desai's Inheritance of Loss... the way she exegerate the description (oh my gos!!) but the more you read it then the more u are into it. hehehe

Al-bakarah ayah 28 starts from the reminder of allah to Human : How it is can (human) kufur to Allah???